Schizophrenia

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Sasha recently posted this immaculate portrait into her—perhaps all our—experiences with schizophrenia.

As for myself, the <a class="StrictlyAutoTagAnchor" title="View all articles about voices here" href="http://www.jharnisch.com/tag/voices">voices, hallucinations, delusions and paranoia with countless doctor's visits recently has been a large factor in my being so inactive online—only reposting, or auto-posting such-and-such for the past several weeks.

It is those "4 out of 5" <a class="StrictlyAutoTagAnchor" title="View all articles about voices here" href="http://www.jharnisch.com/tag/voices">voices as described in this video embedded below which do tell me to "Go for it," and hopefully a podcast to come soon... something... anything. If you or a loved one has schizophrenia, and specifically with hearing voices (either accompanied with self-harm/sabotage, or not) it's worth the few minutes, highly recommended, to not feel alone by looking into a mirror—a part of the shattered mirror, it seems quite often—someone else's.

No, we are not alone—if others could only experience with compassion, and many do. A great deal of us are able to get through the most challenging of times with this devastating condition. If only I could view my own symptoms with a lighter heart, as I sometimes do, but certainly not at this moment. It simply hurts too much.

Blessings, and to Sasha, thank you tremendously for lifting my own spirits while seeing into yours.

Schizophrenia

Link: the update to the theme of Porcelain Utopia I must say is quite awful, the video is still recommended; I certainly do apologize for all the many glitches on this website—oh well, it's beyond my control:

Update, my thinking should put me away—I can't for the life of me in my own delusional wonderland figure out how to embed, link, post images, only type as crummy as it might come out.

So I suppose as this once-upon-a-time little idea for a website collapses, so do I. The voices fucking scream. Hope to switch gears soon, even if I turn this site into a dumpster for my own inner turmoil and all its wasteful delusion. I really wish I could have shared the video—it's not disallowed. My own voices won't allow me to... "You should be locked up," they scream. So that's all I've got, for now.

—Jonathan Harnisch