Restored Post February and March 2012

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UPDATE:

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Bottom Line: Porcelain Utopia has almost zero storage left.

All my programming, removal of all tags, emptying files, caches, etc. did basically nothing to help speed up the site. No Meta tags, ugh, but I love a good challenge and I'm on it this morning! Hope it'll speed up etc., soon. Will likely not be able to post new material until then. Even when I log in, it takes a good minute per anything I do on the admin board. Cleared out all the spam... It's going to be just fine! In time!

I'll move this post down from the top when Mission is Complete. Until then, log on, have fun, be inspired, and search me on the Net as I am beginning to remove my name from certain projects, like my band name and things--perhaps some additional pseudonyms for my work and writing... Had put my name everywhere at first just to get me out there but enough with that, as my art will "sell" itself, even if for free! As I tweeted this morning to 12,000 followers:

My whole life is "public info" had too much of the closing in stuff... even rough drafts of my most brutal novels are avail and free online--kind of like 'hey world, I am who I am. Love me, hate me, be indifferent, but take it or leave it-what ya see is what ya get.' pretty simple…perhaps naive/perhaps even nihilistic... I am happy with who I am and what I’ve got and what I don't, and what I lost. At least this at this very moment. Anyway, I’ve got to get onto my data storage issue with http://porcelainutopia.com a.s.a.p. But I should just start quoting myself, instead of others--Original/Independent/Only a Small "Lucky Few" to quote Stendhal might end up "Getting" the whole Who is Jonathan H. (Angel? "Demon"? Human?)--

Off I Go and Here I Come...

Sincerely,

Jonathan Harnisch

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Dear Readers,

Thank you for all your support and visits here on Porcelain Utopia.

It has taken me months to figure out the code and programming required to speed up the load time which I HAVE been aware (the very slow load time.) No sections of the site should be affected, I sure hope!  :) but I'm just about to begin this day-long project, if not longer than a day... I sure hope this will drastically increase the load time and thus the speed of this site, so just please bear with me, but I'm working on it--at last.

I THINK and HOPE I'm doing the " right thing " on the server. All is backed up, so worst comes the worst, the load time and speed will remain the same but by tomorrow, Porcelain Utopia should run a bit better, at least and at last!

Enjoy your visit, feel free to share things and search around... This is a full time job. My other full time job is the "coping with schizophrenia" but I laugh at that today! You are all rocks of support, just by being there. You have no idea.

I've embedded The Real Me Podcast series through Episode 68 (from yesterday) for you, though I'm sure most of you would rather read than listen but, nonetheless, it's Sunday, The Best Day of My Life! Yes! So I'm about to embark on this project now, so I wanted to stop by and let you know what's going on :)

Yours with Sincerity,

Jonathan Harnisch

Jonathan Harnisch

One Would Expect A Lot Less

NEW FILM ON SCHIZOAFFECTIVE DISORDER

by

Jonathan Harnisch

[UPDATE]

FROM THE CUTTING ROOM:

@ The Hot Club, Cutting the New SA [Schizoaffective] Film: Day #3/Sleepless. The Perfectionist/Artist in Me-Eating Me Up-Until Coming to this Realization: "I Just Edited 2 Feature-Length Motion Pictures [& Directed/Shot] in 1 Week's Time Total, AND I Have Schizophrenia." [One Would Likely Expect A Lot Less from Somebody with Sz/SA.]

LOL at that!

Jonathan Harnisch

Choices in Life

There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.

—<a class="StrictlyAutoTagAnchor" title="View all articles about Denis Waitley here" href="http://www.jharnisch.com/tag/denis-waitley">Denis Waitley

Genre Update

I am attempting to move and rearrange some of the different genres of my work and artistic expressions onto more appropriate platforms/websites/pages, so please bear with me. The main, and most popular Jonathan Harnisch website is right here on the "Porcelain Utopia" Blog & Website at <a title="Porcelain Utopia Blog & Website Link" href="http://www.jharnisch.com" target="_blank">http://www.jharnisch.com.

Things will be going through an adjustment phase for a while, at least for the next month. Thank you for understanding this idea and this adjustment process.

Jonathan Harnisch

Lover in the Nobody: Publsihing Update

"Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest."

—Mark Twain

'One Can Still Accomplish Great Things with Schizophrenia!'

Never Give Up!

For a Limited Time the Original Manuscript will be Available Online:

• http://www.jharnisch.com/series/part-of-the-porcelain-utopia-series


• NOVEL

Publishing Update: The Final Installment for the Porcelain Utopia Transgressive Novel Series: "Lover in the Nobody" Won the Ticket! The More one Works the Writing Muscle, the Better it Gets. "Lover in the Nobody" is in its Final Editing Stages, Slated for Publication, to be Available Everywhere in 2013. Will Let You All Know When. But it's Official! New Agent Coming on Board for Jonathan Harnisch [That's Me!] So Happy! What a Great Birthday Present! One Can Still Accomplish Great Things with Schizophrenia! Never Give Up!

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Porcelain Utopia: A Jonathan Harnisch Novel Series

Jonathan Harnisch

Q & A: The Dreamer Sleeps Without Dreaming

012—to traditionally published in 2013

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The Revealing Writing Therapy, As-Is, During Jonathan Harnisch's Last Psychotic Break

2009-2010

A Metaphor Into The Mind, of Love, Obsession and Schizophrenia

The Dreamer Sleeps Without Dreaming

Premiere Transgressive Literature Series

by

Noted Author and Screenwriter Jonathan Harnisch

[From the Archives]

About

The various works of author and screenwriter Jonathan Harnisch have been noted as some of the most original and thought-provoking of modern day.

Description

Introducing a new and crisp, manic tone to the field of transgressive literature. The novel series The Dreamer Sleeps Without Dreaming originally "Porcelain Utopia" details the consciousness of Benjamin J. Schreiber, a trust fund baby with an addiction problem, a constellation of lurid sexual fetishes that shrink into petrified silence in the presence of actual women, and a half-dozen psychiatric disorders ranging from Tourette’s syndrome to schizoaffective disorder. When the drifting, thirty-something writer is taken into police custody for trying to rob a non-cash bank with a threateningly brandished cell phone, his father pulls some strings that land him in court-appointed therapy. Ben’s therapy brings to light the alter ego of Georgie Gust, for whom Ben’s conceptualized a parallel life that both mirrors and channels his own turmoil. With the help of his therapist, Dr. C, Ben navigates the layers of Georgie’s existence, peeling away pieces of his own history, which begins to emerge with a disturbing clarity.

Appendix: Final Q & A Session between Benjamin J. Schreiber and Dr. C

Well, okay then, Dr. C. If you're so smart, and you think you know everything, let me ask you a question: What does Georgie Gust really want?

That's a simple question, Ben. I can give you a simple answer. You see, Georgie Gust, like countless other American men of his psychological profile, weight, age, and character type, simply wants to find a perfect and flawless, beautiful and untouched, pure woman whom he can worship and adore while writhing and groveling at her feet. Someone he can love with his entire soul while she treats him like dirt.

You mean like Claudia Nesbitt, Doc?

Or maybe it's like Georgie Gust's idea of Claudia Nesbitt. You see, Ben, because no actual sweating, breathing, menstruating woman could ever possibly hope to live up to Georgie Gust's supreme stereotype and highly repressed sexual fantasy of his ideal woman, Georgie Gust is subconsciously obsessed, and compulsively driven, by the unspeakable need to desecrate, defile and compel the perfectly beautiful woman - to submit to his self-punishing, psychological abuse, and sometimes to actual physical torture, so that he can feel superior to her and make her what he wants her to be. You see, Ben, just like you, Georgie Gust-

Whoa, whoa, now! Wait a minute there Doc; let's not get personal. I've got another question for you.

Okay, Ben. Go ahead. Shoot.

What I want to know is this, Doc - if you're such a psycho-guru and know-it-all shrink, and have such keen insight into the male character, why don't you tell me: What does “Famous Amos” Daedalus really want?

That's another simple question, Ben. I can give you a simple answer - in a nutshell. You see, Ben, like countless other sexually repressed, emotionally frustrated, and secretly homosexual American men, “Famous Amos” simply wants to create his own supremely idealized stereotype, and subconscious sexual fantasy, of the perfect woman who will embody his sublimated and spiritual ideal, and still submit to his disgusting, pornographic fantasies.

Wait a minute! Okay. Yeah, I get it Doc. So you'd say, Doc, that because Amos can't ever really find some perfectly beautiful woman, or flawlessly pure babe to live up to his sublimated sexual fantasies or spiritual ideal, or whatever - then he tries to make a perfectly beautiful, flawlessly pure and ideal woman by carving her out of wax and making her into a department-store window-display, or wax museum manikin, or something?

You got it, Ben.  However, not even a perfectly beautiful display-window manikin or flawlessly pure wax-museum sculpture can ever hope to live up to Amos' perfectly sublimated stereotype and highly repressed sexual fantasy. Amos, like Georgie Gust, is subconsciously obsessed and compulsively driven by the unspeakable need to desecrate and defile, to debase and mortify - even his own supremely beautiful stereotypes and flawlessly pure images of the department store-manikin or the wax museum sculpture.

To shit on her, you might say, eh, Dr. C?

Right, Ben. So, like Georgie Gust, and maybe like you, Ben, he can prove to himself how superior he is to those mere sweating, breathing, and menstruating mortal women. He can then reign supreme as the sublime creator-god, and highly spiritualized wax sculpture artist, within his own private universe and fantasy world of the wax museum.

Well, you know, Doc - I have to admit you have a point, there. It seems like you know Georgie Gust and “Famous Amos” pretty well, now, don't you?

You know them, too, Ben - even if you want to admit it.

Hey now, knock it off, Doc! It's nothing personal, you see?

Sorry, Ben. I'll be good now.

Good enough. Because you see, Doc, I have one more question for you. What I want to know, Doc, is this: What does Claudia Nesbitt really want?

Well now, Ben, that's a little more difficult, isn't it? But you know, Ben, despite the fact that Claudia Nesbitt is a pretty complicated character (and maybe she isn't just one woman, but an amalgamation of a bunch of women - all lumped together into one), I really think I can give you a fairly simple answer to that question.

Okay, Doc - go ahead, shoot. But watch where you're pointing that thing, will you?

You see, Ben, Claudia Nesbitt, like Georgie Gust, like “Famous Amos,” and maybe even like you, Ben-

Aw, c'mon! Get off it, Doc!

—Like everybody else in the whole human world, Ben, Claudia Nesbitt really just wants to be loved. Loved wholly and completely, for who she is as a real, live, sweating, breathing, and menstruating woman. Complete with her flaws and imperfections, complaints and complexes, with all her cruelty and perversity, her craziness and insecurity - and despite the fact that she really is something of-

A bitch! Isn't she, Doc? I mean, she's-

—A difficult woman to live with. Just like we all are.

Even me, Doc?

Women and men—even you, Ben.

But nobody can ever really give us the complete and unconditional love we want, huh Doc? Except maybe our mothers-

So, we get stuck in these self-destructive, abusive relationships and failed marriages. We do hateful, hurtful things to each other and just repeat the same stupid psychodramas over and over again.

Like Georgie Gust and Claudia Nesbitt?

Right, Ben.

So do you really think, Doc-?

Think what, Ben?

We could just snicker and chortle and snort.

And chuckle and snigger-

And laugh our way out of it?

And smile through our tears-

And the whole thing would just disappear?

And the whole world would be a paradise - a heaven on earth.

And we'd all be perfectly beautiful and perfectly sane human beings?

It'd be worth a try, wouldn't it?

Okay, Doc. Here it goes-

One, two, three…

Ha, ha, ha…

And he, he…

The End

Jonathan Harnisch

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Positivity and Negativity

Always turn a negative situation into a positive situation.

—Michael Jordan